Reflections: Feminine Woman – Shadow Edition
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Lesson 1: Remember Who You Are
I re watched the call this evening. It was so beautiful and enlightening. Who are you S***? Who are you? You’re not your body, your hair, your thoughts… Your soul needs presence in order to make itself be seen. This is the truth. And it’s so interesting (and I’ll share more in my inquiry post) but I am always in my head thinking or daydreaming, and thus these are not moments when I’m connected to my soul. This was such a raw moment of understanding for me. The second point that really hit home for me was that we are here in order to expand our consciousness. Our soul needs the lessons, the negative stuff, in order to learn. The soul is trying to speak to us but are we willing to listen or are we guided by our ego? It will be interesting to marinate on this this week – where do my thoughts go most of the time? I think the soul shaking moment for me on the call was light vs dark. I’ve always been scared of this and I’ve talked to you about it on calls before too (najjr) but what you said today was absolutely fascinating – darkness will use your ego as a conduit to get to you and therefore it’s EVEN more important to stay present, and this is the only way the light will win, your soul will win. This is it. This is everything. This is literally everything. And just like your body is tired but your soul wants to exercise to feel good, your mind is tired and prefers to be lost in thought, but your soul wants you to be present – so it’s going to take practice. Lots of practice. The awareness is there now. Oh my gosh, the analogies were so incredible. Amazing call, I’m so grateful 🙏🙏🙏
Absolutely so touched and still in awe with the first call…. The anticipation of the call was too high, and I had run thousands of ideas in my head on how the call were going to be. When Fareen said 6 months is a long time, let things move organically, rather than demanding wanting everything now, I could feel my trigger coming up. I could feel that my mind going: let’s do it now, let’s do it, 6 months is a long time, I want to know now…….. What she said after really calmed my mind, and make me reflects on how my ego arises to my wanting, and my patterns. And I felt so grateful for her and her work, and all the energy she is putting in to make sure we are all heard, and felt loved.Everything in the call wasn’t at all anything like what was in my head… it spoke to the soul deeply. I am doing private coaching with Fareen, and yet it felt like the first time having a call with her. It’s so spiritual, it runs a tingling sensation down my spine.
Everything she talked about discipline speaks true to myself. She talked about taking care of the body, and I have been neglecting it for many months now. It is just programmed in me to procrastinate on it. I keep saying that I will start working out when I settle my debts(coz I need to pay for workout classes), or when I come back from my trip, when my knee heals, or maybe get help with aesthetics. It is just conditioning, and I let it take over my soul. I could have lost 20 pounds in the months I am procrastinating about it, but action matters, and I didnt stick with my actions, and it shows , on the weighing scale. Same thing about working with inner self, a lot of actions are required to get to the result, and I am so grateful for this call. I can really put into perspective the actions that I have taken, and the results of it, and the actions that I am not taking, and the results of it. I am so happy that we are all working on this together, it is such a powerful space. Fareen is so in tune with her energy, and it is so inspiring, and makes me want to do better for myself, not only want to, but strive to do better for myself. For this week, I am committed to listen to my body, and be active to the extent that I am feeling good about myself, and not get exhausted from pushing too much. I am committed to making my body feel good and active.
What a first call. I don’t know myself yet; along my life I lost touch and walled off my true self. That self/soul suffers in the darkens and yearns to live free. Self shows up when I can be conscious and intentional; it can be difficult and requires discipline when the ego and the body ask for other things. Discipline, presence and time allow for rewriting and change in alignment with the soul.
This week I am dedicated to being present more to allow myself to witness what is coming up; to hear my heart!
The call helped me to reflect how I was as a child. I remember seeing conversations happening and everyone around was weird, they all had their energies but they were communicating from their ego, as if they were playing different roles and I felt so confused. SO I thought that I should engage in these roles to ‘be part of the family’. I tried them never with the results I thought I would have. I was doing this long enough so it built up, and I “forget’ who I was. Then being kind and attentive was very hard for me, thoughts and I was so heady, it took great strength to choose the actions what was coming from within. But they always brought results even I was surprised about. They nurtured love, because they were coming from love. I felt tossed by circumstances, sometimes coming up for air to breathe, but the “force” of the dark always felt stronger. I was conscious for one moment then reacting the other. I was shaken up so hard to recognize something is not right.
I’m recognizing THANKS TO FAREEN AND THE CALL ‘REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE’ that I am/was functioning in ego. I only cared about being right and preserving this “superficial” feeling otherwise I would end up very very deep, self-love was not a thing I knew. I felt love when I was small and in certain moments. Those are/were so beautiful.
I was crying so hard for nights, just by filling out the pre-work something cracked open, I allowed my emotions to flow and they were there. And I was just crying and the only thing felt right is to “hold myself”. There I felt love and care.
All I cared about is how others perceive me, how I look, what I say and how I say it, ‘Do I appear kind?’ – I didn’t remember the deeper meaning. I was doing everything Fareen described during the call as ego: taking everything personally, wanting everything immediately and used others to validate myself.
Wow, this call was enlightening!! We came into this body to experience our souls desires, to hurt, to heal, to feel, to experience betrayal and to express what our soul wants to communicate. Fareen explained that we are all trapped in our ego, “everything happens TO us” but the soul doesn’t work this way, the soul always comes from a loving place. We are not our body._We are our soul and we need to not distract ourselves from self. Fareen wants us to just be in awareness for now, and remind ourselves of how we are our soul.
This week I am committed to: reminding myself “I am my soul” and feeling into this!
And to identify any of my impulses, are they ego impulses?
Something that really stuck out for me was when Fareen talked about our soul. I do feel like my soul wants to break free of the shackles and limits I’ve put on it. For some time now, I’ve sensed I needed to eat healthier and start working out, not just for my physical health, but my mental well being too, and my body tells me it’s tired and has no energy. I often wondered if it was guilt telling me to eat healthier or if this was a ‘soul’ message. Today just confirmed it! Our soul knows! I used to dismiss it, but I’m glad that question was answered!
Another thing that stuck out for me was that our soul comes into the physical to experience things and grow, including the negative ones. This helped me to just breathe and will help me take a step back when I feel all doom and gloom. It helped with my current situation and the emotions I’ve been feeling.
Today’s call was so heart-opening. When Fareen asked who we were, I honestly didn’t know how to answer that question. My brain wanted to overthink and ask for context so I could answer “correctly”. I learned that when I connect to my heart and soul, my answer will come so easily and freely. I learned that feminine women still need discipline, which felt good to hear because I am implementing more in my life right now with my health such as a healthy eating plan, drinking more water and taking a break from alcohol, moving my body, and getting adequate sleep.
Fareen showed me one way I can connect with my heart and soul. She showed how being present means filtering out thoughts that don’t consciously come from my soul. She showed me how these thoughts that come and go unconsciously are really coming from my ego and my learned programming. Thank you Fareen for giving me awareness! 💕
I was in awe when she had us saying our name & explaining to us the difference between our programming and us actually thinking! That was huge! I’m still trying to wrap my head around that! Lol! 😵💫😆 What I find interesting is that having discipline/structure is feminine. I would think it would be masculine! Trusting is feminine. We have to trust Fareen because she knows what’s best for us.
I felt the energy of what it means to be fully present and light through Fareen. The energy felt very neutral and calm, it was like I was sitting by the sea and just taking everything in. I really loved and felt like the message about “Who am I?” and hearing my own intentional thought vs the chatter made me feel like something was distinct and I felt a lot of relief because I could finally see that the thoughts I have running in my mind about not being enough were actually my programming. When I asked “who’s voice is that?” it was always accompanied with a picture of my parents, the critical voice is my parents’ voice. And the version of myself that was running on autopilot was my teenage self, trying to make it during high school, just surviving. I also felt like discipline was a whole other meaning for me today. It used to mean hustling, doing things forcefully, but when I heard Fareen’s example of “following what the body wants and eating tons of chocolate” but doing what my soul wants to do – and when I sat in the presence of my soul, I realized it will instinctively want to do what is best for my body and it will be the harder choice – not eating the chocolate. But I didn’t feel pressure from that, I actually felt motivated and a sense of expansion in myself because it was coming out of a place of love and care. The energy Fareen embodies and being able to fully experience it and not worry about notes, makes a big difference.
A very soothing call.
“You are not your thoughts” stuck with me 💭
That when we take things personally, it comes from EGO…that unless the thoughts are DELIBERATE, they’re not mine. Loved the distinction between being soul vs ego-lead.
Great reminders.
We pick beliefs up from someone else, they’re absorbed over the years…but are not ours.
I am the creator of my life & could/should take more ownership of it. To remember who I am, to less thoughts & emotions pass…be more PRESENT. If I’m not present, I’m not being ME. Me, myself & I; my soul, can only be active and present when I’m fully present – in the here & now. Great way of framing things, to help it stick, to help things click, be absorbed better.
Lesson 2: Ego
Lesson 3: Integration
This is going to be good to stay in awareness for myself about how my chatter creates my reality instead of letting new learning become a part of me. Fareen wants us to integrate what we’ve been learning and let it sink into our bodies and be part of us. This makes so much sense because it’s not just a lesson, but a learning that is to be absorbed into our being/a part of us. Fareen showed me that I need to know my worth and self love and not rely on others to raise my worth/value.
This is something I am hoping all of my work with Fareen is helping to change, others words and actions. If I don’t have this self love, I will let all that in and let others words and actions bother me. Fareen talked about how love and relationship is the most important thing above all else in her life, and she wants us to know she wants that for us.
I felt sooo much resistance when she had me do it but it was so needed. It was like holding a mirror up to me lol I love how the healthy masculine men just DO. They don’t think of what they gotta do they just do it. There’s no chatter. A great nugget that I picked up was that in order to create new neural pathways is that we have to have the awareness FIRST! We have to be aware of our thoughts. Now, moving forward I will stop it in its tracks.
Here are some comments from Fareen that really resonated from the call: ‘ “Love is the most important thing”, it really is and stuff keeps getting in the way – I hope to shift the stuff (the yuck) so that love can come to me as I radiate it out. “ Choose yourself so a man can choose you” I love this so much. I constantly do mini self abandonment which means I really am not choosing myself in fear of what others think. Its tiring! I am so happy I am aware of it but also aware I struggle to voice/take action/express my needs to choose myself.
A few things that stood out to me –
- If your cup is always full, how will you receive (meaning if your mind is always running like hamster on a wheel, how will you receive). We need to make space. It really makes sense to me & I need to sit with this thought/knowledge & let it in my body. If we are always doing, how will we receive. If you’re always in motion, how will you receive what’s coming for you??????
- It’s the ego that constantly wants
- Be in the space of nothing. Just integrate (meaning let your body absorb what is being said/whatever you’re learning)
- As Anita mentioned – there’s so much energy that’s consumed by our incessant thoughts
- This really motivated me to discipline my mind & not let it run around like an untrained dog & I have been putting in sincere effort to be empty (if my mind is just ruminating on useless thoughts) & to be concentrated on the task at hand & the present.
- You don’t find your purpose, your purpose finds you. Anything you want is your ego (attachment).
- You are not triggered by something when that belief is not in you. For eg, if you don’t think you’re ugly, no matter who says what – it will not hurt you!
- How masculinity is so logical & just point to point that they block things
- Whatever is meant to happen, happens organically. You don’t have to force push pressure – something I always resonated with & feels true & right.
- Don’t jump onto the next thing & the next thing, do things for a long while to let your body pick up on them.
- Healthy masculinity is empty headed. They don’t think about how, they just do it!
Key takeaways to help me remember what to write before I ready others notes. I have bad memory.
– Energies
– Purpose will find me
– We mirror our mother’s behavior
– The quality of our thoughts attract or keep away the things that we want
We had the opportunity to learn about the different types of energies in the group, very helpful. Given that we all have both it makes sense that when I think about what type of energy I have I operate from my masculine and that I get in a low state as well. It is helpful to be aware of my energy type and where the work needs to be done. I wonder if this is the ego playing its part feeling good “knowing”. Also, we are all in the same boat, trying to figure out ourselves and heal. We all have insecurities and I am not the only one feeling “lost”.
Lesson 4: Radical Self-Responsibility
Lesson 5: Patterns
On today’s call I learned to identify a situation as a pattern instead of just one standalone issue.
Fareen showed me that it’s ok to express things simply when we feel chaotic inside. Over-explaining isn’t necessary for people to understand things.
What’s coming up for me is I feel like I’m still learning.
What I find interesting is the way Fareen was so open with everyone and kept her same level of loving energy.
This week I am committed to not get heady about what’s coming up for me, but notice it and observe the pattern, feel the emotion, and not react
Today’s call was my favorite!!! I love how Fareen teaches. She’s so gentle, understanding, doesn’t shame but still has that toughness to her that makes me scared lmao. Like she doesn’t take no shit. We learned about patterns and it’s so crazy how in a nutshell we all kinda act out the same but in reality we don’t have that love, trust, self worth within ourselves. Our partners are a reflection of us & where we were at. Being able to watch & see how difficult it was for some to open up & how Fareen was not shaming anybody for where they are at also helped for me to not go into ego mode but more like “ah okay! That’s okay, that’s where that person is at & same for me. It’s okay!!” It makes it easier to wanna let down my guard & just be seen/be vulnerable. Thank you soooo much fareen! This class was amazing! I love how happy/energetic you are with M***! And i love her energy too! Love seeing how the healthy masculine is too when she was trying to be nice lol. This week I will reflect. Reflecting= taking the time to just be. To reflect on all the calls & to practice feeling into my body.
I need to take care of myself first using my masculine energy, I LOVED THIS, I don’t need to help a man, this will actually make me more attractive. I also need to admit that I want love because the fear of getting hurt is there and makes me doubt about it. If we feel too heavy or if we are not able to feel at all, both are unhealthy energies, how difficult is to move to a balance state. I want to heal my shitty pattern and more than that to heal the insecurities within myself, I am really fed up of feeling this way.
Wow that was really good! I was able to really hear everything today because I wasn’t so in my ego like last time. I am definitely in my head a lot so its hard to let things sink into my body. I could relate to almost everyone’s pattern. It was so helpful to see how Fareen coached everyone to identify their pattern without going into shame and all the heavy emotions because that’s what I did initially and then I got stuck. My pattern: I am slow to warm up if a guy begins pursuing me i.e. emotionally unavailable. Most of the time I’m not physically attracted to him or really want to be with him at first, but I settle because the validation and attention feels good. I get intimate too early and then I get really attached. I get anxious and then I look for more validation and attention. The guy may then stop pursuing me or maybe he stays the same but my need for more validation and attention increases and I want more. I get insecure, needy and impatient, when I don’t get what I want, I get reactive. If the man pushes back or is taking too long to meet my needs or starts to pull back, I get frustrated and leave. I am always the one to end things first. I focus on what’s not working and abandon ship or do it to avoid the rejection that I am anticipating. I always end up feeling unresolved about it and end up pining over him for a long time after in victimhood and then stay single for an extended amount of time. It was very helpful to hear what everyone said about their patterns and so I can use their experiences to reflect on myself too. Fareen also wants us to reflect on the last six calls and avoid distractions so I am really going to try to do that because I’ve been really distracted and in my head a lot lately and spending too much time on social media! I noticed that even when I was trying to watch the calls I was feeling anxious and couldn’t really stay present sometimes. I hear what Fareen is saying about not just taking information in but needing to really integrate it. I am really thankful for this group and everything we get to experience here! I have already experienced and learned so much! With what’s already happened for me, I am excited about my growth and what’s going to come out of this whole experience!
In the past, I would attract unavailable men because I wasn’t open and available. Being more in my heart and vulnerable is open.
Being “nice” and accommodating, doesn’t give ME space to feel and experience my desires; this isn’t open. Without being me, in my feelings and desires, I won’t truly attract an amazing person. I want someone to love and cherish me… I have to be that for myself first. Know myself, trust myself… let myself feel and be seen for who I am.
To attract a man, I have to be the woman.
I’m allowed to feel. I’m allowed to be mad. I’m allowed to be sad. I should let my madness, sadness, happiness, gratitude… all of it be seen. I am enough, just as I am.
Lesson 6 & 7: Patterns Continued
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Lesson 8: Beliefs
Wow what a great session! I have been working on this for a while but I love these reminders because it is so easy to self sabotage and forget about these things! We also take actions and have patterns with men and other things based on these beliefs (i.e. people pleasing, rushing into things, being reactive— stems from feeling.… I’ve seen a lot of changes within myself and with others as I’m worked on these affirmations! I’m so glad that she covered this today because it’s so important and even if we know about it on a conscious level our subconscious always pulls us back to what’s comfortable and so I feel some more motivation to be more on top of this and ways I am continuing to self sabotage. I also fall into that group whose mind is constantly going and looking for a dopamine fix so this week I am going to try even harder to limit distractions as much as I can so that I can give my brain a break and detox a bit more.
Wow, this call spoke directly to my soul. I sat there nodding my head as Fareen shed so much light on our beliefs and how they affect our entire life. I have struggled with limiting beliefs my whole life. Having a mom who, to this day, is still overly concerned and often critical of the way I look, how I manage money, my life etc. has definitely led to me having beliefs of being unworthy and not good enough unless I look a certain way or am a certain way.
Fareen has shown me that everything I have experienced in my life is all a reflection of my beliefs about myself. Everything. I struggle with money because I need more things to make me feel good about myself instead of having self control and saving. I struggle with feelings of worthiness. I can go from one moment feeling beautiful and like a treasure to the next feeling like I don’t compare to someone else who seems to have “more” or something I don’t have. One of those things is confidence. This is something that I have struggled with my whole life.
Wow, this was such a great call! There was so much wisdom and insights in it – very grateful!
Fareen said we don’t want to resist what the Ego is doing (as we are working against programming) but we want to notice it and that if we always look at social media, our brain can never be quiet as we’re always looking for the next thing. It’s important to take space when you’re doing inner work with someone to reflect the teachings and embody it. Embodying is when the concepts are in us. It’s important to have awareness, space and quiet so we’re not looking consistently for the next fix. Then we’ll be in a perpetual state of Ego. Our brain is active but our brain is not who we are. It’s a computer programme and it’s designed with storage from the past. Who we are is our heart and soul. To move to the next level, we have to change everything. All of our patterns are coming from our beliefs and if we had what we wanted, everything would be in alignment.
I really really loved listening to this call. I felt that the timing was perfect for me to listen to these amazing messages from Fareen. There were several things which resonated with me from the call. First this idea of just needing the quiet. I really feel like I am here. I am finally starting to feel comfortable in the quiet which for a very long time would have been really strange and weird for me and I would have pushed it away. But right now I feel happy to be in this stage and feel that I am learning about myself in a deeper way, one which I never have seen before, especially not when I was in relationships. I know that I don’t want to be in this place forever, alone, but that right now I kind of need it to be just me here.
I also understand now how the three core beliefs must really be worked on and how until this truly happens other beliefs/affirmations will not be reached. I certainly know that I dont feel worthy of many things as this is a deeply rooted belief. I continue to feel that I am not good enough as I reflect on the ending of my two serious relationships. This is starting to change as I continue to reflect and take accountability for the part I played in both relationships.
Lastly, I really liked hearing about this concept of “niceness”. It really made sense to me that being nice is not really being authentic. For me, I feel I have always been “nice”. Many would describe me as nice. But I know that this has come from years of wanting to just be accepted and wanting to please and often at my own expense. One of the things I reflect on now is how can I continue to stay true my inner self being loving and kind but not being “nice”. This means setting boundaries, speaking my truth, and not pleasing. I have seen myself become more and more like this over the last year and I love it – it feels more authentic to me. I dont always have to be nice or liked and its ok!
Really loved this topic, so much needed and timely! If we don’t have the top 3 core beliefs no other belief will stick no matter how many affirmations we do.
Lesson 9: Personal Q&A
Lesson 10: Consistency
Fareen said today that if we want to go to another phase, there will ALWAYS be inner work as we need to remove blocks. What we’ve been doing is not enough. When we don’t put the effort and don’t do it correctly we will go back to our old identity.Inner work isn’t fun and the last 2 weeks definitely weren’t very fun for me at all! I’ve done a lot of self reflecting on the mistakes I’ve made (some related to my patterns e.g. being too accommodating and understanding, not allowing myself to be seen and vulnerable), worrying I wasted too much time, not being out there enough in terms of meeting men, realizing what I’d have done differently.
It so resonated with me that she called us out for not doing enough work, there’s not enough effort & she emphasized the importance of consistency which I know is important but the hardest! Man it’s the hardest!
I totally resonated when she said you need to be lighter & I felt it deep in my bones like I need to be lighter & need to work out my ego. I am too heavily in my ego & what I resonated with the most in this class was ‘the more trauma you have, the more work you need to do bc you’ve been hurt & are more in ego’. That was the highlight of the class for me. There’s been so fucking much trauma for me. The bigger your pain body is, the more defensive you’re going to be & more in ego. I am afraid to move into my feminine & it’s like I am being pushed to go all in my feminine but I keep postponing it bc I feel strongly that I’ll get hurt if I become feminine, people will attack me! Ahh!!! It’s so scary to even decide to go into my feminine 😣😞 I just need to become lighter & work out my ego & go higher! I have not been practicing discipline like she had explained in her initial classes – for feminine embodiment. I need to be humble & grounded & working for my benefit for myself – making a note of this bc I quickly become arrogant & hostile if I notice someone’s behaviour is not kind towards me. That’s my ego – my need to protect myself & I very strongly feel like I need to defend myself bc if I don’t, who will protect me? I very strongly feel like people will attack me if I am not defensive, I’ll be hurt if I don’t protect myself, I’ll be hurt if I move to my feminine. I feel this way!
I’m amazed by how Fareen is able to pinpoint out the things we don’t see in ourselves. I was experiencing in the last couple of weeks that my ego is more active – I was not aware of it.
Now seeing it makes it easier and harder at the same time. Surface things does not work anymore. When Fareen shared about meditation and all those stuff it resonated with me a lot.
Thanks to this class I realized how much fear I have in me. Like sometimes I just sit with all that’s happening and the outside looking better and better. And as it gets better I feel gratitude and then it suddenly jumps to fear, but then back to gratitude again. For me it’s huge! As Fareen shared that the ego is going try to stay as it is I felt confused but then came the ‘AHA’ moment.
Like how could I not see what’s already happened and is happening in the outside! And even inside. I feel closer. To myself. I have a long way to go. I loved the stories Fareen shared in the class! It helps me even more the see and to feel how a feminine woman is. I’m so amazed by her taking the kids to the library. It can be felt she cares about them! And I love it! She is literally the best.
I feel so humbled in a good way.
Thanks to this class I realized that justification is just a form of self-sabotage. It does not help anyone.
Fareen showed me that it’s best to take responsibility for my life and come from a place of everything is me until I’m at a point of life where not everything is me.
What really hit me is that I’ve got to do the inner work otherwise nothing will change.
I’ve got to do the inner work.
Fareen showed how i can keep sabotaging myself when I’m not doing the things and not using the tools she already shared with us.
Todays call I learned that we need to stay consistent! Our ego & our patterns will revert back if we’re not doing the work. We have to self reflect. When it comes to being consistent that’s where I slack! I love the analogy of losing weight and being consistent. You still have to put in the hard work but afterwards you’ll feel great. It’s creating those healthy habits. Self responsibility/accountability. If we aren’t holding ourselves accountable then how can we attract a partner like that. Even when Fareen had said something she wish she didn’t she still apologized to Peter & his friend. What’s even more impressive is that they probably found that even MORE attractive bc the way she carried herself. I love that. I want to be like that.
I am finding the classes to be so healing and so truly needed for me especially in the moments when Im listening to them.
I resonated with Fareen talking about pain. I have been feeling a lot of pain lately. Self inflicted pain from my ego and all the stories it’s been telling me about how I’m going to be alone forever and never be genuinely happy because I will lose everyone I love, not have the family I’ve always dreamed about, miss the opportunity to have kids, and just be alone. I have a huge fear of being alone! The trauma of having lost my brother and father and my mom not being in good health makes me scared that I will never receive the unconditional love they gave me from anyone else and I will be let down and abandoned and alone. It’s so freaking scary! I don’t like who I am when I get in this headspace. It’s very dark and negative and depressing and wounded. I feel bad for myself and compare myself to others and are jealous of other families. It doesn’t allow me to show up secure with men when I see they pull away because I then become scared I will lose them and act needy and desperate. I don’t respect their feelings and make them feel bad for how they feel to try and control them. I am really loving working on not reacting to my triggers. It’s almost like a fun game to try and not react negatively to triggers. They still come up of course! But it’s my reaction I keep trying to be aware of and be in more control of. I’m still not perfect and snapped at my mom the other night. But like Fareen said accountability is so feminine and I called her back right away and apologized and she was very grateful for that and then we could move on with good energy. Still a major work in progress! But so much more awareness. I love learning from Fareen just being Fareen. This is one class i’m going to have to watch over and over 🙂 I feel light and love after this call. It also reminded me how good appreciation feels and to show others how much I appreciate them.
Wow I loved the call today and I’m so happy that Fareen did a class on this because it was such a good reminder! I know I really struggled with resistance doing the affirmations when I started working with Fareen and even throughout but now I am just doing them and it feels weird if I don’t! I loved when she said that you don’t change the mirror you change yourself and your mirror changes. Something clicked when she said that! And when she talked about how when we don’t take responsibility or we have murky ego energy we attract other people like that too–like holy smokes!
Agghhh I wish I had met Fareen 10 years ago! I want to be more like Fareen in terms of being more in my heart, integrity and pureness and I know that I still have a lot more work to do but it also feels really hopeful that I have this opportunity. I’ve also come really far too! I still feel a lot of resistance when Fareen says that love is the most important thing. In my heart I do want that love but I also want to feel freer and more abundant financially and I’m not there yet so I worry about money and my job/career a lot. I feel like I get pulled in different directions when it comes to money and love. My ego won’t let go of worrying about my job and money. I don’t know how to let go! When Fareen describes masculine men, I feel so excited to meet a man like that. I’ve always wanted something like that but I never understood or knew what would lead me to that. And the best part is BECOMING a woman that attracts that because it doesn’t feel good to have something and continue to feel unworthy and inadequate. I feel really good after watching this class. I feel proud of myself. I’ve really been trying to focus on taking accountability for myself the past few weeks and I feel that I’m on the right track. I love how much this is helping me and I feel so grateful to Fareen and the work we are doing.
I learned that it is normal for my ego to self sabotage and that my ego is a lot stronger than I thought it was. I learned that my ego blocks growth and expansion and wants to keep me small. I also learned that once I can overcome my ego, then my life will shift significantly.
Fareen continues to show me how I get in my own way and how my actions are a reflection of my beliefs. She showed me how making excuses will only keep me stuck. She showed me how much power I really do have over my life, starting with my own beliefs and the choices I make and my actions. I can have a masculine man. I can embody my femininity. I just need to do the work!
On today’s call I learned how strongly my mind and body is resisting consistency. Fareen showed me the extent of my victim’s energy, as right after the call I began to numb, and went into self-loathing and depression. I could relate a lot to the qualifying energy Fareen pointed out, as I tend to make excuses for myself and behaviour, blaming outside circumstances and people rather than taking full accountability. In turn, this causes me to discount what Fareen is saying, rather than taking it as an aha moment and inhaling the content; which would allow me to grow and progress. Fareen is living proof of femininity and dreams coming true. If we want to succeed we must listen to her advice. As Fareen said, she is practically given us the ticket or key. We are only doing ourselves disservice by not listening and following through on what she is saying.
I also noticed the extent to which I blame outside circumstances for my unhappiness, such as at work and in my apartment. I am not doing my best at work, which involves being productive and doing what that requires, whether I have to go to a coffee shop or the office. At home, I am not keeping the house tidy, which is causing me to hate my apartment. As well, I am not doing the things I need to do to take care of my health and hygiene, which is causing me to hate myself further. It’s a vicious cycle. I am not watching my thoughts and nutrition, what I put in my body and mind. No wonder I am so depressed and anxious. I say I am going to do something and then don’t do it. As Fareen previously mentioned, this causes a lack of trust within myself. How can I trust Fareen and others when I don’t even trust myself?
Fareen showed me how Peter gives back what he is given almost tenfold.
What’s coming up for me is gratitude! Just grateful to see where I had gone wrong before with never being satisfied to now being beyond satisfied.
Lesson 11-15: Mother
Lesson 16: Receiving
Fareen talked about receiving and how in order to receive, we must want to receive!
This is something I really struggle with because I tend to feel uncomfortable with receiving, expecting a shoe to drop or feeling like I owe him back after I’ve received something from a man! Even when I reconnected with my dad as a young adult (he left when I was 7ish, got remarried and moved back to my city and we reconnected), I desperately needed a car, mine broke down, he picked me up, had my car towed and brought me to a car lot. He offered to give money towards my fav car, and said NO, I’ll pay for it myself. I felt SO UNCOMFORTABLE with receiving his help! I instead took my 401k money out and paid for the less expensive car!
I have had moments of feeling really good to receive, just like Fareen mentioned, and then that kind of resentment or guilt feeling comes after, like “why did he do that”? Or “what does he want”? This is not what I want for myself, I want to be open and receive!
Wow!! Do i want to receive? I am stumped when I ask myself this question! I am always thinking I want this I want that I want I want I want and then I also don’t feel good when I am given! On the weekend I felt so uncomfortable when the man paid for me! I awkwardly offer to help and they dont seem to like it. And I do this every time! I hate when the bill comes! All these people tell us that we should offer to pay on dates but do men even want that?? And in all areas my life when I am given something without working for it I feel unworthy and undeserving and i reject it and make it so hard to just accept it wtf! Even when clients give me love I can’t fully let it in..
I had no idea how triggering this topic would be for me. I was never taught any of this and have been living my entire life to “succeed” and “accomplish” things. Im grateful for the awareness now but my ego is very upset and is being very hard on me. Has my whole life been a lie? Have I really been ignoring the true feminine C****** to chase success and work hard and really ignore my intuition and let my ego run the show? Am I single because I desire a masculine man but always push them away because I’ve been living my entire life in my masculine? This class has me questioning my life altogether! Very scary actually!!!
I learned a lot on this call even though honestly it was hard to hear some of it. I also had feelings of jealously come up that Fareen has this all figured out already and she’s been able to escape the corporate world, still be SO successful and secure, and have the man of her dreams. It’s something I admire in her so much so the jealousy comes from a place of flattery and then me feeling bad for myself that I don’t have that in my life. But I’m grateful we have her to learn from and I know we can all get to this place!
So much to this call. It was a hard one but I needed to hear and learn this. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
The biggest thing I see from this call is how disconnected I’ve become with time… and life experience. Do I want to receive?! Of course my soul does so much it does… but there is also SOOOO much fear and it feels unsafe too. I lost so much trust in myself through the situations I put myself in.
I am finally starting to feel and understand when Fareen says she doesn’t want to work hard to have things come to her. I fucking don’t either… although there’s still discomfort and resistance. There’s layers yet to go. I love that I have this space to learn.
I really loved today’s call because it just made me feel OK to accept that receiving is not a bad thing and is in fact feminine in nature. I actually feel really good receiving, whether it’s things or compliments, especially from men. However, when it comes to family, like my mom, it definitely feels more conditional. During fights she would sometimes call me a taker and I feel like it has sort of become ingrained in me and so it has left me with a little bit of fear of not wanting to ever feel like someone is taken advantage of from me and that I need to pay them back.
Fareen showed me how she receives in her relationship without shame and it’s in her and our nature!
What’s coming up for me is I’m seeing the times I gave in the relationship and how it didn’t sit well with either of us. I haven’t done it nearly as much as other relationships I was in though and I’m so happy about that!
When I asked myself “Do I want to receive?” The initial instinct was oh Yes ! but then I double tapped into my heart and there is a slight pain and also nervousness, I’m scared to receive, I don’t know how to handle it. As I reflect on my childhood memories of wanting fair things that weren’t given, I grew up feeling that I was treated unfairly, as the youngest of 3, I always received the least allowance, no permissions etc just because I was young. Until this day I feel that this was unfair and I learned to suck it up.
In relationships I can remember receiving and rejecting. The rejections were me being nervous to receive, to not appreciate what I was being given. How much I would like to have all those things happening now again
Fareen said that to be feminine is to receive – to want support and to want to receive it. Many women have resistance to wanting support. We have to want to receive it in order to get it.If it is an equal transaction, then we are never really receiving. It’s in masculine nature to provide and sacrifice. Masculine men don’t like receiving. He might allow it (in his nervous system) but he is not going to like it. Before this class, I thought that this topic is not that relevant to me, as I have never initiated or paid on dates, and I’d rather be celibate forever than do 50/50 with any man! It feels good to receive, and I am always very appreciative and grateful and don’t take things for granted. It’s only been like that in the last few years though as I used to feel tense when receiving and I used to feel like I needed to reciprocate in the past. Having said that, I had another realisation or more of a reminder when Fareen said that masculine men don’t like receiving. I realized I did use to give in subtle ways e.g. providing some useful info which I know would be interesting to him but that he’s not asked me for. I stopped that now but that’s only thanks to the awareness I got from Fareen’s coaching.There is nothing in Fareen that makes her want to make things happen. She only wants to take inspired action.
The class is amazing – the receiving and the wanting to receive as a foundation resonates with me so much. I admire how Fareen openly shares about her journey. I love when she shared about the awareness that high-value people have – like they know how certain actions are going to make them feel uncomfortable or a certain way even before the action happens so they just don’t do it.
I’ve listened to the recordings 3 times now. I am in Germany for work right now. And i have been listening to this everyday since the class. Today twice. In the beginning, when Fareen asked “do you want to receive”, there was such a strong rejection in my body. Receiving scares me. It makes me feel like if i receive something, i will need to pay for it back. Or i have to be nice to this people, and cant say something that would not make them happy, or do something that would not make them be happy. This is very evident in me when comes to men.
The moment when men wants to do something for me, ufffff, i break a sweat. For me, its like a day will come when i will have to pay for it. And that freaks me out. And when men do something for me, i feel like there is always a catch in that, and i always associate that with sex. Thats the reason i always want to reject it on the first instance.
When Fareen said, first you will feel calm, and immediately fear will kick in….. and yes thats exactly me. I am going to listen to the class again, coz i just love it!
I really enjoyed this class – probably my favorite. I learned a lot about receiving, feminine values, and the impact of hormones.
I did not realize what resistance I felt to receiving. Even when I asked my neighbor to help me trim my cat’s nails, I wanted to give him money or even a coffee. He, being a masculine man, refused, and it felt really good to receive his support, and as Fareen mentioned of the masculine man, he was happy to help and felt comfortable. He even asked me how I was and offered advice in a loving fatherly way.
This class made me more aware of my role as a feminine woman, and how males and females operate. Thus, I was able to accept coffee from a date, rather than wanting to give him something back, knowing that giving makes him feel safe and seen, and I, as a result, felt free and relaxed being open and relaxed in my energy on the date.
I loved this call so much!! I love Fareen said in order to receive you have to truly WANT it first! You say you want it but your body may be rejecting it. In order to want it you have to do the inner work & peal back those layers so you can rest easily in your feminine energy! She talked about how masculine men don’t feel good receive even if it’s as little buying drinks or something. (Like the examples Fareen used) it just wouldn’t feel good for a masculine man to receive. It would take him out of his role and same thing with the feminine. Something I noticed about Fareen is that she’s berg in tune with her body and she knows if she were to do xyz then she wouldn’t feel good then later move into resentment. this class was amazing!! Thank you Fareen!!
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